Your Narcissistic Mother Hates Your Body, and Here’s Why

Whether she fat-shames you or micromanages your appearance, it’s all about her

Julie L. Hall is the author of The Narcissist in Your Life: Recognizing the Patterns and Learning to Break Free from Hachette Books. She is the founder of The Narcissist Family Files, an international resource for narcissistic abuse trauma understanding and recovery, and she assists clients around the world as a narcissistic abuse recovery consultant and coach.
Hall is a journalist, educational writer, editor, and poet whose work has appeared in Reuters, HuffPost, The Nation, The Seattle Times, The Chicago Sun-Times, andPsych Centraland whose clients include McGraw-Hill, Scholastic, Nielsen, and Columbia University. 

As the daughter of a narcissisticmother, you face countless assaults to your identity, integrity, and individuality. One of the most pernicious forms of assault plays out on the battlefield of your body.

Before we peer into the black hole that is your mother and her relationship to your body, let’s review a few narcissistic personality disorder(NPD) basics. People with NPD violate boundaries, avoid self-reflection and accountability, and don’t care if they hurt those around them. They think hierarchically, objectify others, value superficial markers of status, and compulsively project their own shame onto those close to them to manage their unstable self-esteem.

Your Narcissistic Mother Hates Your Body

Your narcissistic mother really does hate your body, and here’s why: The simple answer is that she hates her own body and yours by extension. In her myopic view, as her daughter, you simultaneously represent her and pose a threat to her; your body is a kaleidoscope of her distorted projections. 

You exist as an extension of her and an object in relation to her, not as a subject with your own valid and complex identity, traits, feelings, needs, preferences, and boundaries. Whether you function as a source of pride, embarrassment, or competition, your body is not your own but rather hers to control, judge, display, reject, or otherwise exploit, neglect, and abuse.

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Remember also that your narcissistic mother will tell you, others, and herself that she wants the best for you. This is because she can’t bear to be seen or to see herself as anything less than a devoted and loving mother, and she expects you to mirror that back for her regardless of how true it feels to you. If she attempts to control your eating habits, hairstyle, or clothing choices, she will always tell you explicitly or implicitly that it is for your own good, even if it involves violations such as the following:

1. Sizing you up visually or verbally

2. Comparing your appearance to that of herself, siblings, or others

3. Calling you names

4. Fat-shaming you

5. Shaming you about your skin or hair color

6. Overfeeding or underfeeding you

7. Dictating your diet

8. Cutting or styling your hair unattractively or age-inappropriately

9. Discussing your looks or weight with others

10. Commenting on your eating habits

11. Blaming you for your health problems

12. Pushing you to get plastic surgery

13. Pushing you to straighten or dye your hair

14. Giving you clothes too big, too small, or otherwise inappropriate

15. Neglecting to buy you clothes

16. Neglecting your personal hygiene needs

17. Shaming you for your personal hygiene

18. Objectifying you as a sexual object for boys or men

19. Shaming you for your sexuality

20. Shaming you for your femininity

21. Criticizing your personal style

22. Fear-mongering about your attractiveness to boys or men

The Role of Misogyny and Societal Narcissism

The projected self-hatred of narcissistic mothers onto their daughters is a human tragedy often perpetuated across generations. It is easy to pathologize the narcissistic mother and lay the blame at her feet, but her shame and rage are rooted in larger social problems. Institutionalized gender inequity, misogyny, and distorted identity politics that objectify girls and women as symbols of male privilege and pleasure while stripping them of self-esteem, personal agency, and educational and economic opportunity drive generational narcissism.

The Path to Healing

To heal ourselves and our daughters, we must reimagine our core values as members of the human tribe. This includes teaching our daughters and our sons to respect and honor their own authenticity, respond empathetically to themselves and those around them, and think critically about prevailing norms.

We can’t change our narcissistic mothers, but we can work on building self-love and respect in our own lives and relationships and guiding our children to carry that strength forward for themselves and those they touch.

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